The hardest part…

… about writing is writing when you have nothing to say.  This blog is supposed to be about my job search; I started it so that I would be held accountable.  Well, I’m a poor job searcher.  I have myself convinced any search for full time employment at this point would be fruitless and I’ll be leaving for Ohio in short order and wouldn’t be able to start until the end of the month.  In addition, if I want to really commit myself to acting, I have to commit my time.  Lately, I haven’t been doing much of anything.  I went to the acting seminar that I believe I mentioned.  It was really just a sales pitch to get me into their weekend long, $450 seminar.  Yikes!  Thats more than a week of unemployment!

I’m much better at learning than applying.  The fact is, I stay home and think and talk about what I should do rather than getting out and taking chances and exploring.  Its whats always held me back.  I sit back convincing myself that I will develop the perfect, immutable plan that will allow me a smooth transition into whatever it is I am attempting.  Life doesn’t work like that, though.  What I need to learn to go is get out and try.  I am actually very adaptable and very good on my feet.  I am very good at making the most of the tools and toys in front of me.  I’m just very bad at opening up the toy chest and starting to play.

Anyhow, another quick note about that seminar:  It was about positive thought and focus.  One of the points made was that we focus on what we want to see, blinding us to what else is going on around us.  They told to count, in the following video, the number of passes made by the team in white shirts.  The video started and it was 6 kids, 3 each wearing black and white shirts, running circles around one another while passing a basketball, one basketball for each team.  There were 17 passes.  Some kids some 16, some said 18, a few even said 19.  So they had us watch again.  Definitely 17.  Then they asked if who noticed the gorilla that walks through the middle of the screen.  What?!  So they show us the video again and this big black gorilla walks into the middle of the screen and does a little dance while all the kids are running around passing the basketball.  I never noticed.

So now I have either a week or two, depending when I go to Ohio, to try finding some work.  I want to commit it to acting.  I can’t do headshots because I have silly blonde hair.  I might try some extra work or audience work just to get cash that wouldn’t count against unemployment.  Why jeopardize free money?  I love/hate our government!

About the diet: It was my roommate’s idea in the first place.  He actually started the day before me, and he packed it in last night, making it most of 6 days.  A solid showing, tainted only by his claim that he quit because he ran out of grade B syrup and there was none around to buy.  If hes home with his family, somewhere in the desert, its possible there is no Trader Joe’s or Whole Foods, but even then he could use same normal syrup for a day or two, so I think its a pretty lame excuse.  Nonetheless, he made it 3 or 4 days his first attempt, much as I did, and now he’s made it 6.  Next time he tries he might just finish it.  Its definitely a quick way to lose weight without risking your health.  There are plenty of vitamins and minerals in the concoction, but I couldn’t choke down more than about 800 calories each day.  Well, its done now.  We’re both back to normal.  Of course, normal for him is a “separation diet” where he never eats carbs and protein together.  Maybe I should just pretend he never eats or talks about food so that I won’t be influenced by his wacky ideas again.

As for the girlfriend: Her name is Jordan.  She showed up on my doorstep one day in August, moved in, and we’ve lived happily ever after.  We lived together for 2 months, literally slept together for an hour and a half the day we moved out (as my bed was already gone), then started dating once we’d moved 50 miles apart.  She says to write that she is the most beautiful, smartest, funniest, and most spontaneous woman I’ve ever met.

I didn’t think I would have much to write, so I figured I would make some mention of my true loves, and despite rambling on, I will.  Looks like the Buckeyes are going all the way.  I’m glad Louisville lost last night, now I hope Cincinnati can take care of business against Rutgers.  Boise State doesn’t really count as undefeated, since nobody would even make the argument that any of their opponents are top tier.  An undefeated Big East team can at least make the case that they went through some combination of Rutgers, Louisville, and West Virginia.  I know I shouldn’t look past Michigan, but really, they’re Michigan, the kings of big games under Lloyd Carr.  They don’t even have the talent of those John Cooper coached teams, so their fans can’t be nearly as disappointed when they get rolled up by a far superior offense and equal defense.  The way things are shaking out, we have a 50/50 chance of a rematch in the national championship game.  Texas and Michigan would both have great cases, having only lost to the #1 team, while Florida/Auburn and USC will also be near the top, each with some big games yet to play.  The only thing that would be better than beating Michigan twice would be if Florida can dominate all the way through the SEC championship game so that they are the clear cream of the SEC crop.  Go Bucks!

As for the Cavs: I’m happy they’ve started off well, but lets be honest: between the free throw struggles (looked fine against the Bulls) and the lazy play (I don’t care if the Hawks are in first), this team needs to gel under the new offensive system (loving the back door cuts and easy baskets) so they can play alpha dog against the lesser teams.  As for Lebron, he hasn’t dominated yet.  I still think he needs more of a mean streak.  I don’t care that it was the second night of a back to back, on the road, and I’m still amazed by that dunk over Duncan, but Sean May EMBARASSED Lebron.  He should’ve  turned around and dropped 50 after that.  No way we should lose a game when somebody shows up Lebron like that.  Not only did he stuff Lebron and knock Lebron down, he stood over Lebron and stared him down.  I wanted to murder him.  Can we channel some Charles Oakley into Drew Gooden?  Can we get Lebron some angry juice?  It’s frustrating.

Off the farmer’s market!


~ by Matt on November 10, 2006.

2 Responses to “The hardest part…”

  1. Longest blog ever. I feel I should have been paid for reading that much, or at least gotten some sort of degree.

    Jordan should not have to tell you what to write about her. I want your next blog to be coompletely committed to explaining how special Jordan is to you and how she makes you feel when youre together.Then you should rate her sexual skills from 1-10 😉

    Your diet was dumb…I was on an all milkshake diet once in college to gain weight. I drank two vitamin D milkshakes everynight before i went to bed for like a week and a half. I lost 4 lbs.

    You can already print your National Champion Buckeye T-shirts now. Cinci will beat Rutgers.

    Cavs are fine and dandy. Gooden is already a beast, and Sean May will be dunked on next time the Cavs play the Bobcats.

    Ori out.

  2. That is weird that you’d mention the gorilla video, because we watched that video in a psych of perception class at OSU. It was made by a professor at Harvard named Dr. Daniel J. Simons!

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